If at First you Succeed, Try Something Harder

This is the world as I see it. Sorry.
This time 1 year ago I was in a much different place. I was miserable, annoyed, and struggling with my romantic life, personal life, and professional life. My best friend and confidant was over seas, I was struggling financially and no one around me seemed to understand that, and I was living somewhere that I hated with people who I had come to hate. But I felt Trapped in it. I’d worked hard to be struggling in my miserable job to keep that awful place to live so those people I had come to hate could be comfortable. yeah, miserable was an understatement. The only thing that I was really enjoying in my life at the time, was my part time job. a job I had held on and off for around 4 years. I had worked with an array of different people over the years but a few others had stuck it out with me. During this tough time in my life, those people were what I really had in my life. Those people kept me somewhat sane. 
Nearly a year ago, one of those people received a great job opportunity, doing what he had always dreamed about doing. I decided he was in need of being celebrated and I was in need of getting out of my miserable house for a few hours. 2 bars, 3 hours, and far to many drinks later, I was even more confused about my life, This quote explains why. Slowly I was realizing that through all these years I had been slowly falling in love, and that night it hit me all at once. 
A year later, I could not be in better place. And I’m so glad that it hit me all at once. 
I Love You

This time 1 year ago I was in a much different place. I was miserable, annoyed, and struggling with my romantic life, personal life, and professional life. My best friend and confidant was over seas, I was struggling financially and no one around me seemed to understand that, and I was living somewhere that I hated with people who I had come to hate. But I felt Trapped in it. I’d worked hard to be struggling in my miserable job to keep that awful place to live so those people I had come to hate could be comfortable. yeah, miserable was an understatement. The only thing that I was really enjoying in my life at the time, was my part time job. a job I had held on and off for around 4 years. I had worked with an array of different people over the years but a few others had stuck it out with me. During this tough time in my life, those people were what I really had in my life. Those people kept me somewhat sane.

Nearly a year ago, one of those people received a great job opportunity, doing what he had always dreamed about doing. I decided he was in need of being celebrated and I was in need of getting out of my miserable house for a few hours. 2 bars, 3 hours, and far to many drinks later, I was even more confused about my life, This quote explains why. Slowly I was realizing that through all these years I had been slowly falling in love, and that night it hit me all at once.

A year later, I could not be in better place. And I’m so glad that it hit me all at once.

I Love You

i am going to make theses and wear them when i get married because they are my dream shoe.

i am going to make theses and wear them when i get married because they are my dream shoe.

very dark. love it

very dark. love it

i love everything about this

i love everything about this

Things you learn as an adult….

Like most college students, i spend a good part of my late teens and early 20s at concerts. Mostly small time local hard rock shows, and some acoustic open mic nights here and there. Through most of my early twenties, i was nearly almost at a show, or a practice, or someones basement recording studio. 

It was fun in the beginning but got old right quick. I met some great people and some talented musicians and did learn a lot. But i think the thing that sticks out the most is that i never really wanted to be there. Sure i enjoyed most of the music and did have friends there, but being in a gross, sticky, hole in the wall that had an over whelming smell of beer was not my idea of a fun saturday night. 
Tonight, with those bar room shows in my past, i found myself in a gross sticky hole in the wall bar, watching a band sound check. I felt like a POW thrown back onto the front line! 
But there were some differences about this show. The first and most important one was that i and never heard this band in my life! Never even heard there name. I also knew very few people there, and those that i did i didn’t know well.
All this in mind i cant believe I’m writing about it, or that it was memorable. Although as time fly by with my feet stuck to the floor i am ready to admit; this was the most fun i have ever had, at a concert, on a sunday night, with a group of half way strangers or listening to music i had never heard in my life! The location was in a dirty side street of Boston, the kind of place where people keep an eye over their shoulder when walking down the street. 
Although half way in admit, none of that mattered. I was with the great guy, that group of acquaintances were great company, and the music was so fun! i found myself singing the chorus right along with the rest of the crowd, even though i had never heard a word before. The people i was dancing with were, in some cases, perfect strangers. 
I guess what i am trying to say is just because you don’t find yourself enjoying something, perhaps its not the act of what your doing or where you are, but smaller things than that. Sometimes you can get along with strangers better than your best friends. Sometimes, music you’ve never heard before, can be more enjoyable than your favorite group. and maybe something as simple as someone swaying next to you with their hand on your waist can make all the difference.
This isn’t the first time I’ve had these realizations in the past year. I’ve got a great story about the most fun I have had at the beach since i was kid, but I’ll save that one for next time.
Smile, it might make someones day!

Sounds like my gentleman, everyone os always trying for his attention

Sounds like my gentleman, everyone os always trying for his attention

(Source: therulesofagentleman)